I do not care what their current priest says. I do not care what any of the pew polishing pricks who go to St Thomas More parish in Durham NH says, their three scumbag, degenerate, perverted, pedophile priests, Fathers Leon Gaulin, Paul McHugh and Joseph Desmond, those sado masochist scumbag shitstains on the underwear of humanity gang raped me at St Thomas More, in both the bedroom and on the very fucking altar of this church that you see here.
Now, was I a fucked up kid? Yeah. I was a fucked up kid. Lots of family problems. Mother split, leaving six kids with my father who worked all the damn time. An older brother who hated my guts and blamed me for my mother leaving. I was doing a whole lot of bad shit I should not have been doing, stealing, smoking cigs, etc. I was wrong and I admit that. I should have been punished, especially for what I did to my father that day. But not with what these sick and twisted, degenerate, perverted, sado masochist, demonic pedo priests Fathers Leon Gaulin, Paul McHugh and Joseph Desmond did to “punish me” that night. No one deserves that kind of foul shit done to them by fucking priests who were actually supposed to give me one safe space for one fucking night until I went to court the next day and the judge and my father figured out what the appropriate punishment for me was.
I stole a business check from him. I did not fucking care that money was needed for the family. I did not care that money came out of his business check. I did not care at all at that point. I was getting shit from almost everyone. I remember even my father telling us all the night my mother left, that no one was to blame me for her leaving. But the older brother sure did and by his belief? Made my life a living fucking hell too.
Yes, I mouthed off to my father when the Durham cop asked me what I wanted to do. When I said what I said? I damn well deserved being busted in the face by my father. My father had the right to beat the living shit out of me for what I said to him. And I broke his fucking heart that night when I said what I said. I wish I could take those words back, but I cannot. Yet it was that that brought me to St Thomas More. The Duham cop had no choice then but to take me out of the house as he witnessed my father punching me in the face. The cop did not wrong, he believed he was taking me to a safe spot for the night. He is not responsible for what happened to me, neither is my father. The fucking priests, Fathers Leon Gaulin, Paul McHugh and Joseph Desmond are fucking responsible for what happened to me. The Church is responsible for what happened to me and for all the fucking horror they have put me through for my daring to stand up and speak out against this. To call their Pedo Pimps and Pedo Priests for who and what they are.
Roman Catholics seem to believe we are to respect and love and admire their leaders the way they have been severely brain washed to do. I know, we are drilled that into our heads in Catholic school, in first communion, cathecism and Confirmation classes. The priests are the men of god, you do not question them, you do not argue with them, you do not debate them, you do not say anything bad about them. They have the power to supposedly send your soul to hell and to forgive your sins or not forgive your sins and then excommunicate you. No they fucking do not. They are human beings, who have gotten fucking power over you, through fear and horror and pain and suffering. They are no more special than you are or I am. They hold no true fucking power unless we give it to them. And sadly? Far too may brain dead and brain washed pew polishers not only give all their power over to these priests, they also give their children over to be sacrificed on the altar of rape. And then?
The pew polishers are so programmed that they attack the victims, blame the victims, call the victims liars. Instead of attacking the real criminals, the priests, the brothers, the nuns and sisters, who raped us, tortured us, brutalized us, beat us into submission.
And then you all wonder why we victims and survivors are pissed at you? Hate you? Scream and say foul shit about you? Well this is the reason, because YOU STAND with the criminals instead of your own children who were victimized by them and you all should be ashamed of yourselves.
I have seen it far too many damn times. Parents of victims throwing their kids out on the street cause they call their child a liar.
Victims and survivors online at such sites as Facebook, Twitter, etc, speaking out and demanding justice, demanding the guilty leaders and the guilty pedos be held to pay for their crimes, and you pew polishers of the Catholic Church attacking them in such vile and evil ways.
I have been told? I deserve to be gang raped and beaten to death.
I have been told good they took your son away cause you were raped by priests cause they are right, you would rape him.
I have been called a liar, a gold digger out looking for a payday.
I have been told to my face because I did not punch out Gaulin, Desmond and McHugh? That meant I not only wanted it, I enjoyed it and I was a homosexual because of it.
ALL FOR MY TELLING THE UNMITIGATED TRUTH ABOUT YOUR FUCKING PEDOPHILE PRIESTS, LEON GAULIN, JOSEPH DESMOND AND PAUL MCHUGH GANG RAPING ME IN THE BEDROOM AND THE ALTAR OF THE CHURCH AT ST THOMAS MORE.
To the Pew Polishers of St Thomas More Parish
You do not want to believe what I am saying about Desmond, McHugh and Gaulin is not true. There is a whole lot of great talk about Desmond and McHugh and Gaulin? Well it is like he disappeared like a fart in the wind. But the stories of thousands of victims of pedo priests show and prove? Many could not believe their great priests? Were fucking pedophiles who raped and tortured and abused children. But in the end? The evidence proved they actually were rapists and destroyers of children. Far too many of these “beloved” priests names and images are on such websites as the Bishops Accountability’s Abuse Tracker and Database of Priests.
Same? With far too many other pedophile pastors and ministers and preachers of all the other Christian denominations. Far too many of them been busted as “great loving, etc pastors” only to be revealed for the monsters underneath they actually were towards children they were supposed to care for and protect.
So why is it so fucking hard for you pew polishers of St Thomas More to believe me?
AGAIN, after all your church leaders, especially your Bishop Peter A Libasci has done to me? If I were lying? I would have shut my mouth a long time ago. I would have just gone and hid for a while after your church lied about the statements I made and then hid behind the statute of limitations to get my case dismissed.
During the interview? I told them, the way I went to the bedroom with Gaulin, I described that bedroom: White cinder block walls or white walls, dark curtain with a white curtain behind it on the windows, a dark headboard and footboard. Two nightstands, each with a lamp and a garbage pail in front of the left one. Queen sized bed, brown wool blanket.
I told them what Gaulin first did to me in that room. That he raped me orally, he then forced me to give him oral and I puked in the wastebasket and he raped me anally all the while having me say Our Fathers and Hail Mary’s while telling me over and over again if I told anyone about his special healing I would burn in hell. He then went and got a glass of water and brought it back to me and made me drink it and I passed out to him laying behind me on the bed jerking my dick.
The drugs and my brain supressed the memories of what happened next, but I now know what happened. Desmond and McHugh joined in. I remember Desmond saying it was one of the cute LaFerriere boys, the cutest one. I also remember the sound of a film camera recording this and someone saying that they cannot see to get it on the camera.
I remember being pushed onto the altar of the church and being raped by each of them anally while they again had me say our fathers and hail marys. I remember also the name Asmodeus being said over and over again.
I remember the next morning when the officer came to pick me up. I was in the lobby looking through a huge window into an office with a dark haired, middle aged woman sitting at a desk. I wanted so much to scream out to her what happened to me. I wanted to scream out to the cop what happened to me, but I couldn’t. I remember the cop saying I looked like hell to the Father Gaulin and saying I looked like I had a rough night and Gaulin saying well you know how it is.
Up until that time? I had NEVER been inside your St Thomas More parish or office area. So how the hell can I know what it looks like inside of your parish office area and church? UNLESS I AM TELLING THE TRUTH.
The scene of the crime plays over and over again, in my nightmares. I have horrifying nightmares of being in hell, being gang raped by the demons of hell. Gaulin, his face of a demon comes up and rips my dick off and starts to eat it saying see, I told you what would happen if you told anyone.
Not two weeks after this? I did my first serious suicide attempt by trying to hang myself right in front of my father as he was coming up the drive from his cabinet shop down below. I had tied ropes of the hay bales together and tied it to a tree branch right at the driveway. I waited til he came up and jumped off the branch. The rope and branch broke and I came down with a thud. He came up and demanded to know why. I said, they told me if I told anyone I would go to hell so I may as well go now. About two weeks later? He left to go get his new wife and my older brother picked a fight with me the same day and threw me out of the house. That was it.
At least 8 more serious suicide attempts. Drug addiction, alcohol addiction. Horrors, pain and suffering you could not even begin to imagine. I actually thought I was the son of Satan, the evil one. But I was not.
What made me realize I was not the evil one was all the help I have given to other victims and survivors. All the good things I have done. My sister from another mother tells me all the time, little kids, animals, that do not know you at all come up and hug you and play with you. Kids and animals know what true evil is and you are not evil, otherwise? Kids and animals would run away from you.
No the evil ones are? Fathers Joseph Desmond, Paul McHugh and Leon Gaulin. The evil ones are Bishop Peter A Libasci, Bill Donohue of the Catholic League, Dan Buteau the former prosecutor of the Berlin Police Department in Berlin NH, former Judge Paul Desjardins, Judge Mary Kovack, Ohio CPS worker, Mary Jo Landry and all the others who came after me and tried to destroy me or murder me, for daring to stand up and tell the truth and fight for what is right.
So to the Pew Polishers of St Thomas More? YOU can deny all you want, you can wish all you want, you can pray all you want, that I am lying about what your disgusting, degenerate, perverted, demonic, pedo priests Leon Gaulin, Joseph Desmond and Paul McHugh did to me that night in the bedroom and in the church and on the altar of your St Thomas More all you wish to. You may demand I remove all the postings I have done about you all. But that is not going to happen.
Each and every day, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year, I will continue to speak out and speak the truth about what your priests did to me that night. And either you all can accept it and stop calling me a liar or you can all deal with my words constantly being posted until you all do.
UNDERSTAND THIS PEW POLISHERS OF ST THOMAS MORE, I FUCKING WISH I WAS LYING ABOUT WHAT YOUR PRIESTS DID TO ME THAT NIGHT. I DO. BUT I AM NOT LYING. AND ANY ONE OF YOU WHO DARES CALLS ME A LIAR AND WANT TO PAY FOR A POLYGRAPH TO SHOW TO ALL OF YOU THAT WHEN I PASS IT I AM NOT LYING? THEN YOU ALL OWE ME ONE HELL OF AN APOLOGY.
To those who demand I give respect, or honor to the church and its leaders?
Would you give respect and honor to someone who raped you?
Would you give respect and honor to an organization whose members raped your children?
Would you give respect and honor to those who cover up these crimes?
Don’t dare ask me to.
The Pedophile Priests of St Thomas More parish in Durham NH are Fathers Joseph Desmond, Paul McHugh and Leon Gaulin.
St Thomas More Parish
6 Madbury Road
Durham New Hampshire 03824-0620