Yes, I am an atheist. Yes, I do not believe in your god, nor your Jesus, nor your bible, nor your religion. Your god and your religion is just one of many of humanity. Your god is as real as the Muslims’ god, the Jewish god, or the old Pagan Greek, Egyptian, Roman, Welch, Anglo, Saxxon, etc gods and religions. NO ONE can prove to me their god is real. That would be like proving to me? That the sound of thunder is the sound of the voice of your god, which? If you actually read your buybulls and studied your history of this god? That is what he actually was to the Jews, their version of Thor, the Thunder god.
Be that as it may? I am doing this posting on the topic of why NO CHRISTIAN SHOULD EVER TELL ANYONE THEY ARE GOING TO HELL!!! And? This posting is a result of a set of comments on the posting Is the Bible Creating Atheists?
This is an edited response to Becky, one of the commentors.
ONE of the worst things ANY Christian can tell someone like myself or ANY victim or survivor of a rape by a Christian priest or pastors is that they would be going to hell if they do not accept your Jesus!!!
Why do I say this?
Because that is one of the tools that these Christian pedophile perverts used with great effect to silence us. Now here is my personal example, but it applies to most of the victims and survivors. If you were to read any of their stories? You would see how much this is typical for all of us. When we speak of these nightmares? Think of vivid lucid dreaming, where this shit is real to you. You feel everything, you experience everything, and it is constant, night after night after night. I am sure some of you have had dreams that felt so real it was as if you were not dreaming but you were actually there. This is what these nightmares are like.
Brain-washing in the horrors of hell
Now, when you grow up in the RCC like I did? Hell is drilled into your head big time. They tell you with great detail the horrors of hell. They brainwash you into this by putting great fear into your head, your heart and soul about the horrors of hell and they also drill into you the commandments of god from the OT that you were to stone to death mouthy kids, and all the other shit that happened to kids, like the 42 kids in the Prophet Elisha’s story. The second part of the brainwashing is? A priest tells you to do something? That is like God and Jesus himself telling you to do something. YOU NEVER QUESTION a priest, or a leader of the church. You do? YOU are going to hell. So can you understand this so far? I am sure you can.
Hell used to silence the victims
Then? When you get raped by these scumbags? They use the brain-washing horrors of hell to keep you silent and it works perfectly.
My rape started out with one pedo priest, Father Leon Gaulin, right after the cops dropped me off at the church. He was real disgusting. He had me saying Our Fathers and Hail Mary’s as he raped me anally in the places bedroom. Hell, I can still to this day see it in my mind. The wool blankets, the dark headboard, the wastebasket I eventually tried to puke in after he forced me to perform oral sex on him. But? It was while he was raping me anally that he started using the horrors of hell to control me. Saying over and over to me if I told anyone about his “special healing” of me I would burn in hell for all eternity. I do not know if you can understand what that is like for a Roman Catholic brain-washed kid, but hey…it is not something you would want done to you.
And? There you are, having this done to you, in a fucking church no less, well the church buildings bedroom, and you, deep inside yourself, are begging, screaming and praying to god and Jesus to make this shit stop and it does not? Well another brain-washing tool used is that if god or Jesus did not answer your prayers? Then it was their will for what was happening to keep happening. So again, you are being raped by a Christian Roman Catholic priest, you have the horrors of hell drilled into you being used against you, your prayers have failed so you feel this is what god and Jesus want to have done to you and you? Go literally insane.
Then? When they gang-raped me? Even though Gaulin drugged me with a glass of water after he raped me? My sub-conscious recorded everything. When I first came out about this as an adult? I only remembered what Gaulin did to me, until he gave me that glass of water to drink. But now?After years of great therapy and lots of work? Well as one of my favorite Five Finger Death Punch song goes? I Remember Everything now. I remember every damn thing Gaulin, Desmond and McQue did to me at St Thomas More parish in Durham NH that night and why I tried to kill myself not soon afterwards for the first of many times.
They took their turns with me on that damn altar and they used the horrors of hell over and over again, same type of shit that Gaulin used. Imagine being a kid, stretched, bent over an altar of a church, three damn Christian pedophile priests taking turns, raping your ass, and telling you again, over and over, you tell anyone you are going to hell and this is what God and Jesus is giving you as a punishment for backtalking your father and breaking the commandments.
And this is why when some Christian? Tells me or someone who went through this that if they do not accept their god and Lord and Savior they will be going to hell? That is why we go off so freaking psycho at times.
Welcome to my Nightmares
Not soon afterwards? The nightmares began. First? I would be in the family car, the old station wagon we used to have, the one where my little brother Ricky suffered an accident with a huge scythe. We would be going over the bridge over Great Bay, a trip we took a lot really. At first? It would be horrible storms, a huge tidal wave, almost hurricane weather and we would be blown off the bridge. Then it became sheets of literal fire coming down the bay to engulf us all in the car. After my second serious suicide attempt? They got really, really bad. And because of them? I became a pyro.
I started burning things. I would burn down old abandoned houses, set fire to woods, and then one day I got arrested for blowing up an abandoned truck almost in the center of town. I was literally acting out what was going on in my nightmares. Because they changed to my now being in hell, being gang raped by the demons of hell, just like I was gang raped by those priests in that church.
The demons? Were the priests with demon faces. And I would wake up from this shit screaming, drenched in sweat. Why? Because one of the demon priests would say to me, see, I told you what would happen if you told anyone about your special healing and he would bite off my dick. See why I would wake up screaming. Again realize, these are very lucid nightmares, YOU feel the heat of hell, you see the flames, it is just like you were brain-washed into believing. The demons are real in these nightmares, you feel it all, the pain, it is like living that night of horror all over again, each and every time you have these nightmares. But now? You are in hell having this done to you.
You say you are a Christian? Then practice love, patience and understanding instead of telling someone they are going to hell. YOU may never know what they went through and why they might literally snap on you and throw all kinds of nasty disgusting words at you. It is not personal, it is you telling us that we are going to hell that causes our PTSD to react to you and what you said to us. Understand that the word HELL is a huge trigger for people like us. YOU have no idea what this is like for us. Yes, I am an atheist, but the horrors of hell brain-washing technique is one of the hardest of all brain-washing techniques to overcome, especially? When it is used in this fashion against you.
So when someone tells me, or many other victims and survivors that if we do not accept their god and Jesus we would spend an eternity in hell? Christians should try to understand why victims and survivors have such as myself have a mental blow out reaction when we are told this. Again!!!
It is nothing really personal against the Christian saying this to us, it is just the fact that those who raped our bodies? Those who raped our minds? Those who raped our souls? Our hearts? Used the horrors of hell to torment and torture many of us into silence. Most ask why do we wait so long before we speak of what happened to us? Well this is one of the main reasons.
THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK TO SOMEONE, ESPECIALLY US ATHEISTS, BECAUSE THERE MAY BE? A DAMN GOOD REASON WHY? WE ARE ATHEISTS AND SOME OF THE WORDS YOU DO USE TO US? ARE TRIGGERS, WORDS THAT WERE USED BY CHRISTIAN PRIESTS AND PASTORS, WELL VERSED IN BRAIN-WASHING YOU INTO THE HORRORS OF THEIR HELL, AND THEN USING IT TO DESTROY YOUR LIVES, DESTROY EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU FOR THEIR SICK AND TWISTED, PERVERTED, PEDOPHILE PLEASURE.